Title: Volition
Author:  Rochelle Allison
Characters/Pairing: E/B
Rating: M
Category: AH

Summary:  It's Belfast, N.Ireland and the year is 1972. Bella's worried about her brother and his best friend, Edward, and their dangerous involvement in the Irish Republican Army. Is it really wise to fall in love with a rebel?



“Next stop, Bella,” Emmett said, gently knocking my shin with his boot.

I looked out the window, my heart skipping a beat as Cork’s Kent Station appeared up ahead through the dense fog. It occurred to me that I was about as far from home as I could get without leaving the island altogether.

The train decelerated gradually, finally coming to a complete stop. This was the final stop, so there was a flurry of activity as everyone hurried to get off. Peering out the window, I scanned the station for Edward but he was nowhere to be seen in the vast throng of people. Emmett pulled at my sleeve impatiently, bringing me into the queue moving up the center aisle.

If the station had looked busy as we were pulling in, it was positively heavin’ now that the train had emptied into it. We made our way slowly toward the wall and leaned against it, waiting.

I saw him first; he was wearing the jacket he always wore. His hair had been cut a little, so it wasn’t so long in the back, and his arm was cradled against his body in a sling.

“Em,” I said, hitting my brother’s arm. He grinned as Edward looked our way just then, raising his arm in a wave.


ch 1 http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5115662/1/Volition
ch 22 http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5115662/22/Volition

Edward/ Bella

Eventual NC-17

Summary: Fluffy fun; Edward is ready to go to extreme lengths to keep Bella comfortable on their wedding night. 

Disclaimer:  I don’t own these characters

Author's note:  Things are now getting...er, steamy. ;-)  And thanks to everyone for your wonderful comments- your feedback rocks my world!

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Dear, BD

It's been two years since we last met, and there has not been a single, solitary day where I haven't thought about you since. I know we will never meet each other again and there is no point in thinking about you; but I dread the day when the sun goes down and I don't think about you anymore. 

Why couldn't it have been me?

I hope you have a long and happy life. You're of a rare breed, too rare and special for someone like me.

All my love (if only I could give it to you),
The sad girl you once knew xx

stop being nice to me. i want to kill you.

dear stephen,

i am in love with you. we may bicker and fight, get mad and push each other's buttons but when push comes to shove i am yours and you are mine, and there is nothing i've been more certain of. my dream is teaching, getting my writing published, being with you, and having a family. all i need is your promise to always support me, listen to me, care for me, be my shoulder to cry on, through thick and thin, be my best friend. i'm so glad i met you, and i can't wait to ring in the new year with you and your beautiful smile.

thanks for the uggs,
karyn

Dear C,

We are no longer friends. I don't think we ever will be friends again... certainly not like we were before. I've changed and grown, you've also changed, but I'm not sure it's for the better. I've realized a lot in the last while that I never knew before. I've realized that you're not the kind of person you claimed to be. I think I hurt you; but I owned it, or tried to. You've hurt me more than I ever imagined that you could or would. I'm sorry that things went down with us the way that they did. Hopefully, one day you will recover and get past all of this.

Once upon a time, I looked at you with respect... I'm not sure I can any longer. You've lied too many times. There was a time when I trusted you with my life, I trusted you with my heart. I don't think I can any more, or ever again. You've shut me out with no explanation, you told me we're fine, but we aren't. These little lies hurt more than you realize. I don't understand you any more, I don't know you any more, and I am starting to wonder if I ever did know you at all. You talk big, but you aren't there on the follow through. I asked SO many times what happened to us, and where I went wrong, and you told me that nothing was the matter, and nothing had happened and you loved me forever... and you continued to tell me that when you had blocked me from things. I don't care that you blocked me, it's that you felt the need to lie about it. To tell me things were fine when they weren't. 

I've spent the last month missing you like crazy. I've come to realize that I don't actually miss you, though. I miss who we were. I miss how we were. I miss who I thought you were. Who you are now is someone I'm better off without. I swore I'd never walk away, that I'd always be there for you, and I will keep that promise, but we'll never be what we were. You've made me feel like a lot of things were my fault, or that I was stupid for feeling the way that I did. I don't know where to go from here, but it's safe to say that I'll be going there without you in my life. It breaks my heart, knowing that we were so close and that it could all fall apart so fast. I have to move on now though. I have to get out and live my life. There was a time when I thought we would be friends forever... when I thought you'd always be there for me. I realize how naive that was of me now.

You're good at playing hard done by, but you aren't. You have the strength to move past all of this, if you'd stop investing so much of yourself in in.
Your ED isn't you, nor should it be your world. Get off the computer and live life. You have a career, 2 beautiful children and a boyfriend who loves you. Those are the things that you should be investing your time and yourself into. NOT your eating disorder, NOT pa, NOT whatever other online time wasters you have.
You need to take your head out of the sand, stand up, and live.

I never thought our friendship would end this way, and I'm sad it's over.
I'll always have a place for you in my heart, but I can't keep going this way. I can't keep breaking my own heart every day thinking that things are going to change when they won't. You taught me a lot about life, and a lot about myself. I will treasure those lessons for the rest of my life, and be thankful for having learned them. I hope that one day you are able to move past all of this and join the world.

I needed to say this. I needed to get it out. I needed a sense of closure, even if I never get that from actually talking to you. I always thought we had a friendship worth fighting for, I guess I was wrong. I'm sorry it's come down to this, and I'm sorry I'm telling you this way - but you're never online, and you've blocked me from contacting you another way. I understand this means you don't wish to speak to me further - so consider this my last contact. I won't contact you again, unless you initiate it.

I wish you all the best C, I really and truly do. 
Thank you for everything, but it's time for me to move forward now.

S

insert diety here
please help me to be less dramatic
it's exhausting and I feel a lot of regret about it the next day
thanks cuz
-morgan

Dear Mum,
I'm bi, and childfree (hopefully). My brother is gay, with a heavy medical career in front of him. My sister is too young to think about reproducing for about a decade at the least. Please, do not put all your hopes on getting grandchildren on my sister when you find this out. And don't sling the 'you need to find the right man' line at me. If I met the right man OR WOMAN for me, they won't force me to change for them.
Let's hope my brother adopts; let's face it, with his dental training, out of all of us he's least likely to be the wastrel. I think I'm headed that way, to be honest.

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